年紀大了, 一天一天的過去, 找不到回來. 也許是每晚睡不著的原因...
如果可以多睡一點,早睡一點, 死而無憾...

想想..由沒有電腦的日子直至有了電腦以後, 當中遇到了不, 變也不少...
如果可以給我回到之前, 已有了答案, 我一定選擇沒有電腦的年代.
貓狗的壽命頗短, 自然x後可立即投胎轉世, 對之前的事一瞬間煙消雲散.
人卻不同...在壽命延長下需經歷又經歷, 如股市升和跌, 由基準日起不斷延綿(消極了一點)

不知從何時起, 獨特已離開很遠, 追求獨特更是消聲匿跡; 平而淡和無奇已佔了生活一大部分.

昨晚, 有勇氣照住鏡子, 看著自己(30%), 我接受不到自己那股樣子,接受不到...希望精神可以使我復原.

同時, 一息間, 思索著有什麼不同的地方, 節拍、神氣、舞步等, 甚至練習和創意仍差一點點. 而且,

更發覺自己的老毛病又回復起來:少說話、自信不夠, 絕可能是曾努力嘗試下失敗的後遺症...

很想..很想..一個人獨個兒走向沙灘、遠足, 將眼前的事一揮而去...望著無邊的海和無盡的天空, 省悟自己的位置和我未來行的路.

人是不知足的,清楚我是一個貪吃的人, 再走往一些路邊街播食食, 真是最好不過!

2011年3月18日 星期四晚凌晨4時, 距離我生日還有3個月, 預先祝自己生日快樂, 一年比一年生活得更寫意,更有意義!

Skimming my memories, i have said if your friends one by one leave to you in a day, how will you do? so far, i it's still no answer for me.

maybe i early accepted the nature in every things, which was due to release my negative feelings. 

When i mature in each year, lots of things maybe gradually fade away.Originally, i believe that is not easy to fade it while i do live in a family life again that i consider this is unfortunate. Again, if let the individual life for me, i will be very cheerful. Again, be an one of the family member, there're lots of 'history' and 'burden' that i bring together. I wanna to ask when can i put it down?and who can i share this ridiculous things?

Imagine, if you were in unfortunate on interpersonal and family, you will really get the feeling what it is.

Now, i merely find the solution that is getting a job like using an adhesive plaster curing a wound temperately. In fact, i wanna most of them can understand there are no many decades in one's life and the reasons-results at the same time.

The three past nightmare had past away, it's in dangerous conditions yet in case of the divide do not draw by me. So, i am a bit pleased that i draw it and let me alive to running time. 

Also, the next means is that the focus is people turn to myself. Therefore, i have settled down the refinements in different stages, which is a year, 5years to 10years,etc as the whole repair project in my way.

The period of self-abased and blame have been left it, i often remind the importances of constructions rather than moving the materials only.

To be honest, i do experienced the 'CC life', that's the evidence of not 100% real in reality again although i have early got it. In mental, i 've prepared the change of future in guys or in life.

The time is moving on

回憶總像頭猛獸，
在你最不經意時來襲。

看到一些東西，可能是他喜歡吃的東西，
也可能是曾經他買來哄你的東酉，會想起他，
會記起曾經一同品嘗的甜蜜。

路過一些地方，可能是曾一起用餐的餐廳，
也可能是曾經一起看戲的戲院，
只是坐在你身邊的不是他，
你會想起，
曾經依偎著的肩膀,那種踏實和安穩。

做著一些事情，可能是當初互相沈醉其中的遊戲，
說過的傻話,幾乎不能兌現的承諾，甚至一些在街上做過的瑣事，
你都會記起，曾經，你像個天真的孩子，
相信愛情可以一生一世。

這些是過去,是回憶，是支撐未來的營養，
可惜我的過去太零碎，築不成我的未來。
只是，
回憶總像頭猛獸，還未來得及回頭，
已經侵襲我整個世界。

第一界亞洲星光大道冠軍終於出爐，亦是曲終人散。看着台上一顆顆明日之星在進步，精彩而寫實的表演，雖然評審總會說仍有進步空間，但對於在電視機前的觀眾，又或是台下的支持者，每一晚每一場每一首歌都是值得用上七天來期待！這節目令生於８０及９０年代的我們一輩明白何為”歌手”。即演繹者起住關鍵作用，有些歌就算冷門，一旦在他們口演繹，也變得動聽起來～有的甚至比原唱來的更有味。驚喜，就是我投入亞洲星光大道其中的一個原因。很奇怪的是，這麼棒的一個”音樂節目”竟然媒體少有提及。星光大道完結了，感到一陣失落，不知下次能如斯期待的電視節目要何時才有呢？你有感到一陣失落嗎?

My comments:

失落是現今的演藝人才少之有少!

說真的! 現時演藝的人才少之有少, 老想回復昔日80年代的黃金風華，機會不是完全幻滅的，關鍵在於社會願意在演藝範疇上推動的力度以及心力。 其實在這仍以傳統技能的香港教育制度下，不論在大專或在中、小學，每逢考試、測驗!重大時刻都拼命苦讀，埋頭苦幹，鬥個死去活來; 或許你會說新的教育尤其是三三四等新高中的教育體制已為我們未來的棟樑作全人教育的昇華，話雖如此，可否仔細想一想這般「新」的東西的確已經推出，然而背後仍負著一個重要的「福袋」，便是考試評核!，還記起科舉嗎?  千千萬萬個考生機乎變成頹垣敗瓦，可惜的。所以，天生我才必有用，才能是不止於文字筆墨的讀書範疇的!

或許你又話..." 噓!走演藝好難搵食....同埋你要先天本錢才可有機會晉身爭霸之列, 後天的努力都需要，就以演員來說俾盡你超勁都只得當二三線演員，甚至只能一輩子當臨記囉，o甘就一世啦! "

oh! sorry !我可以話俾你聽事實並非如此! 同時若你這樣想豈不是一絆腳石嗎？可以話八古想法。回看番我們現時的教育道路，個個不是A餐就是B餐，通通都是為更高的學歷及資歷而選擇進修、考大學、死溫難溫，溫得大多自有神庇佑，拜得多自然心想事成，天下大吉....我話俾你知，真係天下大「吉」啦，個個為左更高的學歷而拼老命去讀，有些得意過關，有些則古來白「吉」無人！ 我想問自己的才能呢、天賦呢....死晒?? 等至大年紀，真的很遲啦!

講到尾，推動演藝是一件十分裨益的事情!..十分希望社會製造更多相關這類型的節目，最好除了星光大道、超級巨聲之外，還可嘗試將之擴大，涉獵更多的不同才華藝能的磋試，讓更多的人有機會發展右腦功能，隨時幹一番成就來、康富來、健康財富滾滾來！

或許有人反駁..."哈....真好笑，呢DO甘既節目通通都是COPY出來的，一點新意都冇，收皮啦...頂!"

我可以話真係頂你個肺嘞，第一根呢個世界上機乎好多東西都是抄出來啦，你敢唔敢講話你讀緊既書、著緊既衫、LOOK緊既文件、WEBSITES，是自己或人地獨創的嗎？答案可都是有既，但問題精髓在於抄襲次序上的先後而已姐!

所以，天生我才真係有用的，我唔相信成世就要斎「讀書」，又或者打足一世牛工，就這樣，一輩子便這麼過，你話何等可惜呢？阿彌陀佛....!  亞里路亞....!

On 25th April that is IELTS Exam which is so important for my study and the alternative same weigh examination, diving two sessions  are morning and afternoon sessions : former is 3 paper test ( Listening-Reading-Writing ), latter is only 1 paper test ( Speaking ). It need for going to two centre for exam , one is Novotel世紀Hong Kong Hotel and the next one is Regal富豪 Hong Kong Hotel , which is all in Wan Chai &Causeway bay ,HK Island.

I take  the tests totally 3hours in ballroom during morning sessions, it's only the Reading test is so difficult and remaining are also easy for me .....it's nice!

Till to Sepaking test which is exam in a guest room whatever the interview room or test room .......eventually i release my nervous when i have finished the Speaking test......All testing have finished and the time went fast!!

time was nearly 4pm, i had a visit and look to Times Square which is so busy and many customers passing the plaza.It's a few time for me go to HK Island , so visiting around until 5pm and then wnt by tunnel bus backing to Kowloon yet.

It's a percious experience....whole exam were condutated in hotel placement!

& I also think i can get an ideal (5) grade!Hope god blessing la!@@